Most of you know if you follow along with me on social media that back in 2016 I was laid off from my corporate job right around my daughter’s 1st birthday. Contrary to the rest of my team, I wasn’t at all “sad” about this news. Postpartum Anxiety was a very cruel reality for me and all I wanted was more time with my kid. So when God presented this perfect “out” for me and made the decision for me, it was a no brainer- to me at least- to stay home with our daughter and become a “Stay at Home Mom”.
My husband- needed the convincing. We lived very comfortably on my full time pay. Even after the cost of gas AND daycare we were pocketing a very large chunk of money into savings and our investments and STILL having plenty of money to “play” with. So losing my income would be a huge, tight adjustment.
Around that time- I was being approached to become a health and fitness coach with Beachbody. But I wasn’t the typical candidate- I had lost 0 weight, dropped 0 pant sizes, had NO real before/after photos- instead I was more an avenue for women struggling with weight loss while nursing- being more an informed advocate for HEALTH over weight loss. Beachbody filled a financial need for my husband, a social need for me to still feel like I had worth outside of the home, and helped me in more ways then I can count.
But when I started working on writing my book about my PPD- more and more people were coming out of the woodwork telling me how what I was doing with Beachbody was great- but they didn’t “see” it long term for me. People kept telling me I needed to work with women Postpartum- I needed to find a way to advocate, mentor, offer support, AND earn an income. But the pieces weren’t falling into place.
I haven’t been in a good place mentally for some time, honestly I’ve let all the negative and doubt creep in steal my joy. Things like”
*a lot of push back from uplines when I started venturing away from the training module
*a lot of push back when I wasn’t pushing a required product in order to be a customer on my team
*a lot of people just falling off and I couldn’t seem to really “reach” them to engage them again and I was feeling like a failure
*drama- lots and lots of drama- lord have mercy the drama was just too much for me to handle most days
*rumors started from mutual friends that I was quitting (like where did that even come from?!?!)
*people talking behind my back about me and my business
*people putting rumors in other people’s ears about things I said
*people telling me my priorities weren’t straight when I wouldn’t budge on “family” time to attend trainings or meetings
Stay tuned for Pt 2 tomorrow……