I had some really dark days the last few months where the blows just kept coming, but still I pushed through, I put my blinders on and I worked and then I was asked to be a part of a launch training called
Time Maximizing Mastermind with a very dear friend of mine: Ashley Meyer and week 2 was like a huge slap in my face. I think God knows I need these HUGE wake up moments for me to really listen. I’m not good with subtle. I need in your face- no mistaking it.
Week 2 was listing out everything that you do for everything in your life and as I started writing things down I was getting anxious and overwhelmed about it all. When my list was finished I was looking at this 1 page sheet and 90% of the page was filled with things that I did daily and weekly for beachbody and everything else I did fit into this small space on the page. I knew something had to change. Most of what I do with Beachbody reaps $0 income. And until that moment I was okay with that. I’ve always pushed relationships over a paycheck, but when I sat and stared at it in my face- I couldn’t deny I was working for almost nothing. In order for me to stay home, I needed to be bringing in some sort of true “income” not just a hobby pay. But the work I was putting in and my pay out wasn’t equating.
It was a really hard pill for me to swallow and see that. I sat on it for a few days, talked it over with my husband, but the deal was- I needed to be bringing in income or I had to go back to work. But Beachbody wasn’t worth my time in a business sense. I had to remove my feelings about this and look at it just like I would working for a company. If I didn’t remove my feelings, I was drowning in worry and guilt over leaving people who I have come to know and love over the last 18 months in their struggles. Many of them had trusted me with their deepest secrets and I felt like I was betraying them.
When I quit the first job I got out of college, I was part time- hourly. I left that job for a full time – salaried job WITH benefits. That was logical. Did I love my job? Yes. But in the end, I needed MORE than what was available to me. And Beachbody was no different.
Back at the end of June I made the announcement to my customers that I would be stepping down from coaching, but I was placing them in MORE than capable hands with my partner Ciara Spencer- who has become like family to me over the last year. In order to make my real and true dream a reality:
So I set off for Summit with every intention of quitting Beachbody. I had my emails drafted to transfer customers, my discount coaches to send to my upline, my goodbye letter. I had left ALL the groups on facebook and I was paving my own path. I was done…..
Stay tuned tomorrow for Pt 3