It seems fitting that I’m talking about gratefulness right now, after all – Thanksgiving is just 2 days away. Since I’ve been diving more and more into Manifesting, Law of Attraction, and improving my own personal self – gratitude has been at the core of all of that growth. Let me give you some back story.
For so long I was living in this scarcity mindset. I was consistently comparing myself to others and thought the grass was greener in someone else’s life. Whether it was for business, finances, marriage, parenting, or friendships, from the outside looking in, it seemed I was always longing for more.
That longing was leading me towards resentment, impatience, and anger.
Why wasn’t I further along in my business?
Why after 9 years were my husband and I still in marriage counseling about communication?
Why do I suck so bad with patience with my kid?
Why is it my husband that has to work these hours and be away from our family?
Why are we STILL in California?
Why is everything so expensive?
I think I realized I was starting to head back towards a path of life resentment and fantasy world of the things I really wanted in life. The big transition came for me when I sucked up all my pride and we made the financial decision to move from off base in the community to on base housing. To say I was devastated was an understatement. I had fought tooth and nail to cultivate a community the last 5 years and when I finally had one, we needed to make a better financial decision and move….again. We’ve lived in 4 different houses in the last 6 years in California. And each time, we started over. I was completely against the move even though I knew it was a smart decision for our family. Despite my negativity towards the move I had that tiny voice of reason saying:
This will bring you closer to your family. This will be you abundance. This will be good for you.
Fast forward a few months, some disappointing friendships that turned out to not be friends after all, some business launch failures, I was finding my grove around June. So much in my life had shifted in 6 short months, what I was seeing as upheaval was actually making room in my life for a huge personal growth milestone. When I removed all the noise from my life I truly saw just how much I had to be grateful for.
We have a beautiful home with a gorgeous view of the mountains. I have an inquisitive and bright little girl who is growing in leaps and bounds. My marriage is stronger than ever, because those people who I thought were friends were clouding my mind and judgement with complaints and criticisms and when I stepped out of that I realized how incredibly blessed I am with a man who is very giving and selfless. Our financial situation is improving now that we’ve finalized a plan since paying off all our debt a few years ago. And my business is thriving, more like exploding at a rapid rate, but it is exponentially growing every single day.
The key to this shift? It wasn’t just removing the things (both physically and spiritually) from my life, it was being aware of what was right in front of me. When you surround yourself with people who don’t align with your core values, you question the things that matter to you and you crave other things. When you surround yourself with people who are not grateful for the things they have, you also in turn start to feel ungrateful and scarce in your life.
Sometimes what seems like chaos and unraveling is really just building you up for some pretty incredible transformations and making room for positivity to grow and thrive in your life. The more I focus on the good in my life, the more I see what I really have is absolutely fantastic. I have the perfect life for me. I have everything I need to be successful, happy, patient and kind. I have everything I need to be loved and to love. I’m grateful for this life I am living.
So my word for 2019 is Grateful. I want to focus on being gracious so that I can cultivate even more abundance in my life. Tell me, what do you have to be grateful for?